Today, before I knew it, it was noon. I had forgotten to set my alarm. When I woke up, I saw world leaders meeting with each other. I couldn't help but grin. Ah, I thought, the international stage really is cool.
No choice but to go to the gym — the ultimate state.
After that, since it was a gym day I got ready to go. Unfortunately the hostel didn't have a container to mix my protein in, so I had no choice but to buy one at a convenience store.
Lately, or rather since I came to Chiang Mai, it feels like there's no such thing as 'I don't want to go to the gym but I go.' Because there's only the option to go, there's no 'I don't want to go today because it's tough.' Pretty great.
I walked to the gym and bought protein at 7-Eleven. Today's workout was really tough. With the barbell — a 20 kg bar with 5 kg plates on each side — I could only manage a maximum of five reps. I wondered why that was. Even so, lifting 30 kg isn't easy, I thought. But for now I completed every exercise today. I feel less tired than when I first started, and maybe that's because I'm getting used to the gym? If so, I'm happy.
Busy, therefore fulfilling.
I stayed at the gym for two hours, then walked back to the hostel listening to music. Walking while listening to music is really fun. I had a meeting at 8:00 PM, so I hurried back to the hostel. Then I quickly gathered my clothes and took them to the laundry.
I thought I was insanely busy, but this is the life I love. I'm so busy I don't even have time to think. That means I'm fulfilled, I guess.
So I did the laundry, ordered khao man gai, went back to the hostel, ate khao man gai while it was being dried, and then went back to the laundry.
Finally the meeting. Today I got a lesson on how to do SSH connections. Seriously, there's so much to learn every day. In my current life there's always something to learn, and I can live like this without want — I'm grateful.
I invited someone hiking, and got turned down.
By the way, I'm saying goodbye to Chiang Mai next Tuesday, so I thought I'd take the chance to ask a girl I met on Tinder who loves hiking. I didn't get a reply for a while, so it took some courage to send the message, but I did. She reacted well and we got as far as agreeing to go. It's 93 km, but we were like, let's just have fun.
But while I was in the meeting I got a DM that said, 'Sorry, I forgot I was going hiking somewhere else. So sorry.' Honestly, I was annoyed and a little sad because I had some expectations.
I was thinking tomorrow was finally going to be a fun day! But hey, of course other plans can take priority over a hiking trip with someone you just met. I totally understand how she feels.
But experiences like this make me want to become a more attractive person. Instead of getting depressed about being turned down, can you think, 'Okay, I'll become cooler then'? This kind of frustration actually creates energy.
The 'priority' of relationships and your own value
For everyone, relationships have priorities. It's cruel but I think it's a fact. Both men and women are naturally drawn to attractive people; for women, physical beauty is a major weapon, and rather than being a disadvantage it's only an advantage.
And men should have solid thinking, be financially and mentally stable, be clean, caring, but with a little spice, and a healthy body… something like that. Well, that's how society seems to be.
That's why you have no choice but to raise your own value. Right now I'm experiencing life as a member of human society, so I'll enjoy it as it is.
I want to level up as a person, raise my value, and have fun. I'll raise my value! Value!! I am value. If I increase my value, people will move for me and I'll attract others. I want to keep raising my value, and I will.
